its all very useless.
back in TO and just told my parents about my unfortunate engine-oil-cap catastrophe. my mom took it pretty calmly (mostly cuz its over and theres no further point to excite me), my dad started screaming/ranting (as i had assumed): at the car, the "mechanic" who changed the engine oil the day before (and therefore the cause of all my anxiousness), at me. i knew there was a reason why i didnt tell them/him that night after it happened - yay for instinct and knowing how my parents work/think. now that i (and the car) am back here in one piece, he can kick and scream all he wants. i have a feeling hes gonna go beat up the mechanic tmr, too bad i cant join in on the action. it would be too unladylike, esp for a chinese girl.

i hate chinese people - not because of this incident, but for all the other run-ins ive had in the past. if youre going to scam me, less bitchy would be nice but at least TRY to act sincere:

"The secret of success is sincerity. Once you can fake that, you've got it made."
~ Jean Giraudoux

hmmm maybe i should rephrase: i dont hate who i am, my heritage, traditions, ancestry, i just hate those who give chinese ppl a bad name. those who believe that theyre better than the rest of us just because they can...i'unno, speak english. those who actually believe that they have abilities nobody else has. i especially hate those who are ASHAMED of who they are and where they came from. you cant change what you are, so unless youre planning to pull a michael jackson, learn to respect yourself.
no i dont think im being a hypocrite. so i dont know all of the traditions and even tho i often criticize other chinese ppl, im still very proud to say that im Chinese - as opposed to some who are like "oh yea, im chinese (unfortunately)". ive actually seen some of these ppl, mostly teenagers, some who arent, a little bit younger, a little bit older, but all who just infuriate me. if nothing else, they refuse to even learn the language, they cant hold chopsticks - forget about holding them properly, they cant hold them at all - they shun their parents, and are so utterly disrespectful of their elders that I want to slap them. so even tho i keep saying i hate chinese ppl, and conversely saying that im proud to be one, i hope that doesnt make me hypocritical. maybe just confused.

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hmm

ive forgotten where i wanted to go with this. anyway, im just pissed off overall, for more reasons than one.
i apologize for making you read such an incoherent rant, more like verbal diarrhea. its too late and im tired so im gonna cop-out now and NOT finish this thought process.
im not reading over this again, so that means im not proofing it. comment if you want, better if you dont cuz then i can believe that NO ONE read it, and i am not actually such a pitiful writer.

morning

*posting times are SO screwed up. it is NOT 154am*

pictures from the OSG are up. not mine but thatll come soon. i didnt go as camera-crazy as i wouldve liked.
THIS one is the clearest pic of me. yay. 8th - starting from the left and counting in.
oh and here too...can you find me?

will post my own pix once i upload them from the camera.
anyways, s'all for now.

have a good day at school kids!